Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Insignificance

In one hundred years.
Everyone reading this will be dead.
Maybe sooner
Maybe much sooner

So is there anything that is not trivial?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

It's come to this

I was born with these impulses with this body with this mind. I did not choose to be this. No one did. We start out a bundle of rapidly growing cells and somehow we form into beings with ideas and opinions and likes and dislikes. Everyone begins the same and we all end the same. Into the earth recycled energy recycled matter. We are all "borrowing" what makes up what I can touch and know as you.

What a terribly common misconception that one being is better than the other. We as people think we have some sort of knowledge and right that we know how much someone is worth. We look at each other wrapped in these external shells and often enough based on this we Judge. My skin is a pale color because of the amount of melanin in my system. Melanin is a justified reason for name calling, prejudice, hate,violence and death. There are people who feel like strangers in their skin and yearn to be someone else. These people are mutants! Freaks! Who you are attracted to determines you're right to have children and be married. Not to mention if you get to live without being threatened everywhere you turn. Yes, it's all on the outside everything important the places where you should go and what you should get in your life a stranger can decide within two minutes of knowing you. Not even.
No! no no no no no NO.
no
I know that you know and we all know or well some of us know this is not right. We are writing each other off like looking for the peaches without bruises. We are deciding what is right for others while we have no idea how they feel. I know how I feel. I know what is right for me. I know what I need. Or well at least I am learning what I need. I don't know what you need, I don't know what you can do or what you don't want to do. You can tell me and we can help each other get somewhere. For anyone to think that they can examine another with the weakness of eyes and know all these things about them is just plain silly. But we do it all the time! We have these set in notions of right and wrong of class and race and place. We lump the most unique of beings in a large sticky group based on something as trivial as melanin or sometimes things that aren't even a part of them like the heaviness of the pockets and the watches on their wrists. And we form these rules and ideas about everyone that apply to a group as if even two people out of the group were identical. We stick words like "Black" "White" "Poor" Straight" "Gay" "Rich" "Asian" "Jew" "Muslim" "Atheist" Sometimes we'll go even further pick out words that are demeaning and foul "Nigger" "Faggot" like this word can define the immense endless feeling and pain and love and emotion and thought and wonder that makes up a human being. And the funny thing is we are all humans! We all know how much there is to ourselves how can we not realize it is the same for everyone!? Even the basic of titles "Man" and "Woman" come with all these applied ideals and roles that can never fit everyone because well we are not all the same! Physically yes we are all just energy and cells making up tissue making up organs making up systems making up you and me. However there is so much more to being a human. We all know it we just somehow can't apply the way we feel about ourselves to everyone else.

So what do we do? We judge and we hide for fear of being judged. Some of us can not hide because it is the physicality they were born with and they wear it every day and the prejudice and hate that comes with it like a stain on their backs. Why do we do this? Is it fear? Is it our need for acceptance from others to hold the same corrupt belief they do? We need to be accepted by someone so if we shun others we will belong. It's the sick cycle we are stuck in. A circle of hate a circle of judgments a circle of wrong. Will it be this way forever? If no one ever does something it will. So I am. I am not perfect and I make these calls with blind eyes like anyone else. The time has come for change though. I am not better than anyone and if I ever have anything more than another it is by pure luck and nothing more. Be the change you want to see in the world. The change we need to see in the world. Well I will.

I am who I am. I can not change that. I don't want to. I don't have to. Neither do you. Accept everyone for who they are. Love everyone being for the unique beauty that makes us human. Don't let fear rule! Don't let hate rule! Maybe I can make a difference, maybe I can not.
I will try.