Maintenance Hall 4 am

I want this moment.

I wish I knew how to capture an experience. Not with a camera that's just a perception an image. It tells a story but only a little tiny piece of it. If I took a picture right now what would it be? Me sitting at my computer, nothing remarkable really. Oh, but right now right now I can't even describe it. I'm bursting with something it is stretching at my fingertips and toes and making my face glow. I want to take this, me the way I am right now and capture it in a jar like a firefly.
I wonder if it is possible to recreate something like this? If i got the music and the timing just right? and the way my shirt feels and pressure of my headphones on my ears and the taste of my tea and the itch in my nose and I thought of everything I am thinking right now could I duplicate the way I feel? I doubt it and even if I could it just would not be the same. It would be hmm artificial? And besides I'd be expecting it so it wouldn't hit me the way this did. A rush of this thing... it's like flying a kite that is picked up by a gust of some zephyr and carried to an incredible height. It's not the norm and it won't last long. But when it's up there that hardly matters, It's up there and it's wonderful and there is no logical reason why it is this moment this and not five minutes ago. It is just supreme as it is in that moment. Right now I am full, brimming actually with a buzzing prospective. I'd be silly to think this will last. Things will go back to the way they have been. Everything will fall back down. But i just wish i had some way to capture this to remind myself that though it may seem this feeling is a fleeting impossibility, and most of the time it is. Sometimes a rare wonderful sometime all of a sudden it sweeps you up and fills and surrounds you. This is what I walk around looking for.

I wonder if there are people who can synthesize this? Whenever they want. Wow what a thought