Ch ch changes

I don't think this was the place for that other post.

I work pretty hard at trying to find patterns in everything around. If you look very closely you can sometimes see these tiny bonds between events that link together to form chains. These chains if you can see them can sometimes if read correctly, help you predict what will happen. Originality I think is sometimes a myth especially in human behavior. I believe once we form such patterns we don't tend to break them very easily at all. It is almost like a formula we will follow in a given situation. Can we change?

Change is something that evades me all the time. We are on this constant journey for something and more often than not what we seek requires some sort of er, self improvement? We need to eat better, act different, open up, exercise more, break a habit there seems to always be something we need to change about ourselves to be what we see of ourselves when close our eyes and get lost in a fantasy. This change though however I am afraid is impossible. Impossible may be too strong of a word. I do not think anything is impossible. I just realize that change true change when attempted is one of the most difficult things to do. At least that is my personal findings and based on the rigid behavior patterns I see all around me I am guessing most find it as unattainable as I do.

Wait hold on, that is not right at all. People change I've seen them change. It can happen right before your eyes someone you know inside out can slowly become someone else. It seems like they are unaware of it as it is happening but you can see it on them. The change is not one they are purposely working for but their surroundings are bringing out something in them. It happens to everyone sometimes while we are watching other times we may leave and return to find ourselves face to face with strangers. Is change something that we have no control over? Are we at as complete a loss for controlling the change within ourselves as we are with the escalating world around us? It seems we can not change ourselves but we can not stop the changes we see around us. Maybe I should not be including anyone everyone in this maybe I am the only one who feels stuck while everything is whirling away from me.
Am I?